Ekphrasis: The Red Studio (by Matisse)

•November 16, 2009 • 3 Comments

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Matisse: “The Red Studio”

W. D. Snodgrass

There is no one here.
But the objects: they are real. It is not
As if he had stepped out or moved away;
There is no other room and no
Returning. Your foot or finger would pass
Through, as into unreflecting water
Red with clay, or into fire.
Still, the objects: they are real. It is
As if he had stood
Still in the bare center of this floor,
His mind turned in in concentrated fury,
Till he sank
Like a great beast sinking into sands
Slowly, and did not look up.
His own room drank him.
What else could generate this
Terra cotta raging through the floor and walls,
Through chests, chairs, the table and the clock,
Till all environments of living are
Transformed to energy–
Crude, definitive and gay.
And so gave birth to objects that are real.
How slowly they took shape, his children, here, Grew solid and remain:
The crayons; these statues; the clear brandybowl;
The ashtray where a girl sleeps, curling among flowers;
This flask of tall glass, green, where a vine begins
Whose bines circle the other girl brown as a cypress knee.
Then, pictures, emerging on the walls:
Bathers; a landscape; a still life with a vase;
To the left, a golden blonde, lain in magentas with flowers scattering like stars;
Opposite, top right, these terra cotta women, living, in their world of living’s colors;
Between, but yearning toward them, the sailor on his red cafe chair, dark blue, self-absorbed.
These stay, exact,
Within the belly of these walls that burn,
That must hum like the domed electric web
Within which, at the carnival, small cars bump and turn,
Toward which, for strength, they reach their iron hands:
Like the heavens’ walls of flame that the old magi could see;
Or those ethereal clouds of energy
From which all constellations form,
Within whose love they turn.
They stand here real and ultimate.
But there is no one here.

Ekphrasis: The Starry Night (by van Gogh)

•November 12, 2009 • Leave a Comment

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The Starry Night by Anne Sexton

That does not keep me from having a terrible need of—shall I say the word—religion. Then I go out at night to paint the stars.

Vincent Van Gogh in a letter to his brother

The town does not exist
except where one black-haired tree slips
up like a drowned woman into the hot sky.
The town is silent. The night boils with eleven stars.
Oh starry starry night! This is how
I want to die.

It moves. They are all alive.
Even the moon bulges in its orange irons
to push children, like a god, from its eye.
The old unseen serpent swallows up the stars.
Oh starry starry night! This is how
I want to die:

into that rushing beast of the night,
sucked up by that great dragon, to split
from my life with no flag,
no belly,
no cry.

Revolutionary Road

•November 11, 2009 • 2 Comments

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I watched ‘Revolutionary Road’ at Nancy’s Movie Club last Saturday. It was the 2nd time I watched it and I promised myself not to watch the show ever again. Why? Because it is a heavy, draining show – the squabbles, fights, tension, sadness make it hard to watch. I find that my eyes avert almost instinctively as I make it a point never to stare at somebody who is in obvious distress without offering a hand to help.

Of course there are many wonderful themes in the show, brought across in so many poignant scenes and dialogues, and so masterfully portrayed by Kate Winslet and Leonardo DiCaprio. Take the scene where Kate’s character (April) takes out a box of old photos showing them as a younger couple, and she remembers a past dream that they shared – that of going to Paris and living there. But when she reminds Leonardo’s character (Frank) about it, she finds that he has long forgotten about it, and laughs at what to him now seems a childish fantasy. He goes on to cite the reality that they have jobs and children to take care of now. After a series of events, they finally decided not to go because of the lure of an unexpected job promotion for Frank and an untimely pregnancy for April. As I watch, I couldn’t help but think of the quote by John Lennon: “Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans”.

One of the tragedies that panned out throughout the entire movie is the curious, but very real, situation where I find that both of them are never on the same page in the state of their marriage. When one is ready to take the plunge, the other dithers; when the other is ready to move, the other hesitates. I think relationships are this way sometimes, and I feel that it is always a blessing to have feelings and timings be in sync with each other in a relationship.

Another idea that caught my attention was when a friend asked April why she “wants out” of her life, but April answers that she “wants in”. Sometimes it looks like we are running away from things, but in reality, there could be things choking the life out of us and we have to do something about them or else we will just drift through life without really getting into life. Although Frank makes sense too when he tries to convince April that “we can be happy here too”, it is all too clear that change is needed. Just like that railway station scene in ‘The Hours’ where Virginia Woolf tells Leonard that she needs to take the next train to London, even if it seems foolish or dangerous, because she says, “I am dying here”.

“Out of the mouths of fools spew forth wisdom”. In the movie, there is a mentally ill character (John) who doesn’t seem to fall in line with the plot of the show. But his role is most interesting because of all the characters, John seems to be the only one who is able to see past the veneer of a ’successful life’ and into the ‘hopeless emptiness of it all’. While politely tolerated in the first scene he appears, by the second scene, we see that Frank and April are uncomfortable with John’s presence, not because he is insane, but because he dares to speak the truth which they dare not hear. Perhaps by casting John in the role of an insane person, the writer is trying to hint that he may be the only sane character in the show.

In the end, the biting irony of the title becomes obvious: that there is nothing revolutionary on Revolutionary Road; that even as April and Frank set off on their journey as a newly-wed couple, believing that they are ’special’ and ‘unique’, they end up spinning a web of mundane routine, sucked into the “lie that we have to resign from life…”

Elizabeth Lam!

•November 5, 2009 • 2 Comments

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This is my 1-month-old niece, Elizabeth!

She is a naughty little girl who loves to be carried.

But she would box you on the face even if you carry her.

If you ’scold’ her, she will smile at you sometimes. =)

She likes to sleep with her legs folded.

She loves to stretch. And stretch. And stretch.

She smells nice.

I love her to bits!

A few more days…

•November 5, 2009 • Leave a Comment

The reason why I haven’t been blogging much the past few days and weeks is because like my students, I have been busy preparing for the A-levels. It’s only a few more days to the General Paper on 11 Nov, and we have been revising Content material, discussing life issues such as Happiness, Truth and Beauty, and practising skills such as paraphrasing and summarizing. I can feel their pressure and I see their countenance change as the countdown draws closer, but if anyone of you are my students, and you are reading this, I want to tell you to be calm and not be too nervous! You need all the coolness to do the papers! =) Just yesterday, a few of my students came up with a brilliant suggestion that I should record my voice reminding them about the things to take note of, so that they can replay the recording over and over again when they are doing things like brushing their teeth so that they feel more reassured. Haha, I thought that was a cute idea (no, but I am NOT doing it)

Think I will really miss them after my last lesson with them this weekend, but in the meantime, as the days tick by, omnes una manet nox.

Just wanted to say

•October 26, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“Hi Mr See, the gang and I graduated today. We had a farewell concert and all, just wanted to say that we missed you.”

Received this touching SMS this afternoon from my ex-students in TJC. I taught this wonderful batch of kids some 3 years ago, and I still think of them now so very now and then as they were quite special to me since I taught each and everyone of them (all 6 classes!)

All the best for your A-levels, TA1s! =P

Learning to be aware of what we esteem too lightly

•October 20, 2009 • Leave a Comment

“What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; it is dearness only that gives everything its value.”

Thomas Paine

Not to bring us to heaven, but to save us from hell

•October 2, 2009 • Leave a Comment

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Recently, I have been redoing and updating my lecture and tutorial notes on the United Nations for my JC2 History tuition kiddos.  It’s a fascinating study of the world’s only truly international organization and through its achievements and failings, we look through a mirror to see our world since 1945. One of my favourite personalities is one of the UN’s earliest Secretary-General, Dag Hammarskjold. There are many things about him that inspires me  such as his activism for peace, his beautiful literary art, and his awe for God, but it is his quotes which depict a wonderful blend of reality and idealism to reflect a man whose eyes were always on the stars above us, but whose feet were firmly planted on the groud beneath him, in this “soiled and surly orb that engulfs us”. Here is a little selection from my collection:

Everything will be all right – you know when? When people, just people, stop thinking of the United Nations as a weird Picasso abstraction and see it as a drawing they made themselves.

Do not seek death. Death will find you. But seek the road which makes death a fulfillment. (This is a tragic quote on hindsight because he was killed in an inexplicable airplane crash on his way to Congo in 1961 for peacekeeping purposes)

The UN was created not in order to bring us to heaven but to save us from hell. (My favourite quote on the UN)

God does not die on the day when we cease to believe in a personal deity, but we die on the day when our lives cease to be illumined by the steady radiance, renewed daily, of a wonder, the source of which is beyond all reason. (A wonderful rejoinder to Nietzche’s oft-quoted claim that “God is dead”)

In the last analysis, it is our conception of death which decides our answers to all the questions that life puts to us. (Something that we discussed at our movie club after watching ‘The Bucket List’)

Never for the sake of peace and quiet deny your convictions.

A To-Do List

•October 1, 2009 • Leave a Comment

Ever since my friend showed me that you could have ‘To-Do’ reminders posted on the wallpaper of your handphone (yes, I’m not a techie), I have been using it to great effect. And just the other day, I was musing at the words on display: “6 to-do items not done”. The number always fluctuates, but it has never, never been “0 to-do items not done”. Sometimes before you can reduce the number, you add another item to the list, and so the list balloons. Are our lives about having to complete all our to-do items? How much control over our lives do we have if all the time, new items pop up on our to-do list? No wonder there is this quote about how events are in the saddle, and ride mankind.

But a to-do list may not be all that bad. Just watched ‘The Bucket List’ a few weeks ago about how 2 men dying from cancer came up with a list of things to do in the last 6 months they have left before they kick the bucket. Interesting and heartfelt idea which demonstrates that sometimes we don’t live until we know we are dying. Everyday brings us one day closer and so we move inexorably towards the end. But before you think this is going to be a morbid, doom-and-gloom blog post, it’s not! I think it’s refreshing for us to pause and think of what we would like to do or have done or dreamt of doing. So this is my attempt at coming up with my own list!

1. Run up the escalator the wrong way
2. Study in Oxford
3. See the Eiffel Tower
4. Act in a play
5. See my name in print
6. Cook a meal
7. Scuba-dive
8. Visit Prague
9. Go sky-diving
10. *Censored*
11. Shave my head bald
12. Attend a pop concert
13. Learn to play the erhu
14. Write a book
15. Start a business
16. Dye my hair
17. See the Pyramids
18. Learn to surf
19. *Censored*
20. Kiss under a mistletoe
21. Make a movie

Ok, that’s all I can think of right now. Haha, but I’m sure they will be more to come! =)

4 things

•September 29, 2009 • 1 Comment

I’ve learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he or she handles four things:

A rainy day, the elderly, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights.